The Joy

Friday afternoon. One hour and forty five minutes of British literature. Enlightenment, romanticism, realism. Jane Austen, Charles Dickens, Charlotte Brontë. A classroom. Twenty three eighteen-year-olds. Two instructors in the back corner taking notes, following my every move. A white-board. An over-head. Me.
 
Teaching means to guide. inspire, lust and love. It is my passion. My gift.
 
Afterwards, as I collect my papers and two dozen teenagers leave the room and run off to the freedom of a weekend break - each with a copy of Oliver Twist. Then, one of the boys lean over my desk.
 
"Åsa," he says, smiling. "You are the best teacher candidate we have ever had. So far."
 
The joy! The joy! The joy!

"G," I say, smiling. "You are the best class I have ever had. So far." 

It takes Passion

Someone once told me I needed a hobby. He should not have. I don't like the word hobby. It makes me think of grown men collecting stamps or building model boats.
  
People will never change the world through hobbys. We change the world through passion. 

Thyra

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Thyra is growing so fast. It is fun watching her getting bigger and better at controlling things around her. She also just got her first two teeth! Cutie.

    
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Many times it is not toys who are the most fun to play with. This camera case was way more fun that both the playing duck and rattling hippo.

So Easy

My study group met at one of my classmate's house today. Her children were at home, so she needed to be there. As we sat discussing our presentation for Friday, her eight year old son came down to the kitchen with his girlfriend, offered her a seat, and poured her a glass of passion fruit soda. Seven women watched him tenderly from the other side of the room. 
 
There is hope for the next generation.

Ordning & Reda

I did laundry today. When I went down to get the last of my things from the dryer, a couple sat and starred at the two washer machines. It turned out someone had stolen their laundry time (a social crime in any Swedish apartment building) and they were determined to catch the thief in the act of changing loads.
 
For my part, all my clothes are now clean. Everything I have sneezed, snuffled, and sweated in the last days are released from stinkiness and returned to their shelves or hangers. Perfect rows and pretty piles. Organized in color.
 
We are all anal about our things.


The Flu

Whenever flu-season comes around, I am normally not concerned. First of all, I almost never get sick. Nock on wood - I know - but the truth is that I rarely catch things that go around. Maybe it's my exemplary lifestyle, maybe my extraordinary genes. Either way, I have always happily accepted the outcome. Maybe that is why I have never understood the hysteria around THE FLU. Judging by people who claim they have it, it's not much different than having a cold. And having a cold is not being sick. Not in my book.
 
But this flu-season has been a brutal eye opener. No longer will I be dumb folded in conversations about the flu. I also know the flu does not equal a cold. I have been enlightened. In the field of education, we call it learning by doing


Lovely

88514-1601Valentines Day 2008
 
I slept terribly bad last night, woke up every twentieth minute or so, had nightmares I don't remember anymore. At six, I dragged my aching body out of bed. My back hurt particularly bad. It still does.
 
I believe I am getting sick for real, have a stuffed head, sore throat, and a runny nose. 
 
The apartment is freezing - I am cold.
 
I should study for my exam on learning theories tomorrow, but have a hard time motivating myself to open the books and concentrating enough to read them. 
 
I will be having dinner alone in front of some dull TV-show tonight - if I can make myself cook.
 
I will go to bed alone tonight. 
 
Life is not fair.
 
Not  today.

Knitting

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Maria, a style icon and fashion lover, invited me to a knitting lesson in her comfortable couch last Sunday. We had not seen each other for more than a year and had of course tons to talk about. What better combination than knitting and gossiping? Add a purring cat family, countless cups of tea, and a peaceful fire glowing in a stove next to us. Is this 2008 or a hundred years earlier?
 
A huge Thank You to Maria for the knitting needles, yarn, and the beautiful Icelandic glass piece (a late birthday gift that didn't have a lot to do with the knitting). You are one of the most generous friends I know, and put people like me to shame.
       
  
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Maria showed, and I copied. So pedagogic, our teacher trainers would have cried tears of joy had they seen us. But Maria was a tough teacher too. My first creation I had to tear up again. I knitted too hard... Practice makes perfect. Right?
 
   
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Well, well, well. Look at this. Almost done my wrist warmers. Now, I am hooked on knitting and have several projects planned already. When is the next meeting Maria?

All pictures are taken without
permission from Maria's blog.

A Hug

Yesterday I run into Christina Gullin, a teacher I had in a couple of literature classes a year or so ago. I loved her, always sat at the front row of the classroom, as a child on Christmas, with twinkling eyes, and wanted more, More, MORE. I wanted to be like her, wanted her knowledge, her enthusiasm, her academic style, and her calmness.

  

When I needed to do my final presentation a little early - in order to make it over to the States in time to start school there - she worked out an alternative seminar for me. She was excited for me and interested in hearing about my plans.

  

I hadn't seen her in more than a year when I met her at school yesterday. Her face lit up when she saw me.

  

We spoke for a while. She asked a bunch about the States, about Marty and me, how we would work things out and what plans I have for the future. I got all warm inside. I couldn't believe she remembered and my business like that.

  

Then she gave me a hug.

  

A Hug!
 
How many college teachers hug their students? Maybe more of them should.
 

It warms still.


Respect

I was in the middle of making dinner when my door bell rang before. I don't know how it is for other people, but in my life it is very rare for someone to stop by just like that, at least someone I want to see. It is usually either Jehovah's Witnesses or The TV-People (agents from Sweden's public TV that track those down who do not pay the monthly fee - people like me). 
 
I had already built up a decent bit of irritation - for whoever it was that couldn't leave their fellow citizen alone a Saturday night - when I looked through the door hole. 
 
Outside stood my upstairs neighbor and his little son. I opened.
 
"Hi," my neighbor said smiling. "I just wanted you to know you've left your keys in the door." 

I heard myself thanking him and as I grabbed the bundle of keys, they walked on.
 
Tonight I learned that some people take the time to show respect to their fellow citizens. 

Even on a Saturday night.


Carboys

On my way home from school this afternoon, I saw two men in a pick-up truck. 88514-1596
 
Wearing black cowboy hats.

I looked twice.

They smiled and waved.

I wonder if they knew.

That I am from Texas.

 
Almost.

 


   

Scribbles

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These are my notes from today's first lecture, about quantitative research methods. I stopped writing since we were told the power point presentation would be posted online. That's how lazy I am.

Instead I moved on to scribbling. The picture also gives you the lecturer's most interesting comment: "There is no right and wrong. There is only one truth."
 
I feel like there is something there I don't get.

Getting Old

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This is my "we-go-way-back-friend" Nina. Last Monday it was her birthday. On Sunday we got together to celebrate her. And eat. And talk.
 
This year we all turn 26. Twenty-Six! That means we are now closer to 30 than 20. Scary. Suddenly, we are not so young anymore. How did that happen? Friends are settling down, getting married, and having children. Partying more often means getting together and making a three course dinner than going bar hopping in town. And it's more fun that way. We look at the twenty-year-olds and envy their youth. 
 
Gosh, we are getting old.
 
 
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How did we all grow up so fast? Johanna is getting married to Linus this summer, and Elin moved in with Robert a while ago.
 
 
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Anna and her Björn just celebrated their first anniversary of moving into their dream house.

Wet Game

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My mom playing with Thyra last Sunday. Thyra enjoyed getting to know the yellow duck with stretchable neck, judging of the abundance of wet kisses it got.

Cutie.

Faith

          
In today's world, religion is a charged topic. People do evil things in the name of religion and spread fear and loathe of faiths that once were supposed to bring people together. It's a shame. I have a pretty peaceful attitude to religions and wise followers of them. Most religions preach love and goodness and I sort of like that concept. 
  
There are extremists in all camps and they are all just as horrible. In Israel, I once met a orthodox Jewish woman who believed all arabs are born evil and that Messiah would return first when they all were exterminated. I couldn't think of anything to say to her, so I just sat silent. Scared.
    
Otherwise Israel is a cool place. People around the world only know it as a violent zone. They see war and killings on the news, but as always there is another side. How many knows of the magic around the Western Wall on Saturday nights, when hundreds of Jews hymn to celebrate Sabbath? How many know about the fresh made pitas and hummus from the stands in the Arabic quarter, or have seen an Armenian priest stop to get a falafel on his way to service? 
     
On any given day, more people get along than hate each other. But that never makes the news.

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Something I love is religious music. Rarely is there more effection than in a song of faith. Here Zain Bhikha sings Mountains Of Makkah.

Dear Mr. Dickens,

88514-1591It is often difficult for me to see if I make any progress in my use of English. Common sense tells me that I should get better and better all the time, but it is tricky to measure. Therefore I have had my doubts. Up till now.
  
A couple of years ago, I bought a paper back version of Oliver Twist. In English of course. It was an impulse buy that fed into my highly set goal of one day being able to say that I have read the canon of classic literature.

Excited and hungry for some of Dickens' realism, I started to read - but soon stopped. It was way too difficult. I struggled my way through three chapters before I gave up. I had not understood anything. As a monument of my incapacity, the book ended up in Billy
 
A few weeks ago, when I unpacked my books and tenderly put them back in colorful lines on the shelves, I found Oliver Twist. Stuck in it was the old bookmark - after chapter three. I opened it and started to read. And flew through it.
 
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Dear Mr. Dickens,

I finally understand you!
Your language is not a bit difficult anymore, but funny, clever, compassionate, and brilliant. And I love Oliver. He is a darling. Rough start for a kid, but I have a sense it will all be ok. Even though he is in a lot of trouble right now. The others believe he is dead. But I have my doubts. I am only half way through the novel. What would the rest be about if he was gone?
 
Thanks for writing.
        
Yours Sincerely, 
A reader

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